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Schools Back

so school has started and everyone is getting back into the swing of things. This time last year I felt like I didn't belong with the friends from freshmen year. I never seem to keep friends long. I think I do that so I don't get hurt. I mean if I change friends often then I can't get hurt right. Then I don't have to get close enough that when I am dropped I don't have to fall as far.
The friends I have now are amazing. I love them so much. Sometimes I feel like the joke of the group though. I hate being made fun of, and I hate even more when people say that when they make fun of me it means they love me. People have always said that to me growing up, and I have never gotten it. Those friends that have said that are no longer my friends, mainly because I have moved or they have moved. But I don't feel the need to keep in contact with them, what are they going to do make fun of me from long distance.
And then there is the whole me being quite thing. I mean what is the big issue with me being quite. Sometimes I just like to be, and people always make a big deal of it. You would think by now that my friends would get that when I am quite it is okay I am not dying. They just don't seem to catch on. And when I am quite it usually means I just want some affection and hugs. I feel the lack of hugs this year, and it kind of hurts.
Well now that I am done with my strange rambelings I am going to bed....the sick thing about that is it is not even 11pm yet. Oh well.

Summer Ramblings

So here are some more summer ramblings of me.

So we have just started our staff training and with it starts our Staff Devotions. Every morning after breakfast we have a staff devotional time and then with the verses and the stuff we talked about we are to journal what we think.

Well we are doing the same thing we did last year, which is cool because I get to see how I have grown since a year ago. Our main verse that we use is John 10:10. We talk about how Christ came to give us life, but we also talk about what Satan does to destroy and to take our lives.

Today we were talking about the lies that Satan tells us to destroy our lives. At the end of our journaling we had to write out the lies that Satan is using on us personally. I started writing out the list…and it kept growing. I realized what a hold Satan had on my life. I realized that there are so many times that when I look at myself (either physically in a mirror or just at my own thoughts about myself) that I look at myself through Satan’s eyes. And because I do that I don’t see who God made me, but I see who the world has made me. I see myself as ugly and not having the perfect body, or I see myself as not important and unworthy of those around me. But then there are other times when God helps me to remove those filters that Satan puts in front of me and I am able to see myself as God made me. And that is in His image. So how I could ever think of myself as unworthy and not beautiful seems crazy when I think about it.

So overall God has been teaching me some amazing things and camp has not even started yet (even though I have been here for 5 weeks already). Our God is so amazing.

Deborah's Summer...So far...

So my summer so far has consisted of a missions trip and being on Caton's. The time here on Caton's has be interesting so far. We have gotten the camp all ready for campers. We have had a counselor workshop here, trained CITs and have had school groups come on. There are only a handful of us here, but that number keeps growing. I have watched the entire first season of ER and am now on Season 2.
I have bought a camera (a Canon Rebel XTi). And a hand gun (ok so it is a bb gun)...that does not shoot straight. I have read a Hardy Boys book and two Ted Dekker books and one Jannett Oke books.
I have missed my friends and pray for them each day. I think of all of them so often. I miss them when I feel like no one here cares for me. And when I am treated as just a lacky and not someone that is in a head position. I have worked from the bottom rung up to get to where I am today, and I feel like I should be treated with more respect then I am treated with. To be treated not as someone who has never been here before (seeing as I have worked here for a long time).
But it is all in God's hands and i just need to give my worries and concerns to Him each morning and remember that He will take care of me.
I heard a country song the other day called "Tear drops on my guitar" and boy did I feel like I related to it..just because the girl feels so out of the loop.
I hope all of your summers are going well.

Deborah Ruth

So it has been awhile

So I have not actully posted in 2 years, but hey you should always start things up again. I am sitting in my college dorm room at bethany bible college with only 1 exam left (and then I will be finished my second year here). I am in one of my friends weddings which starts in about 12 hours...I should be sleeping I know. But I had to paint my toes...and now they are drying.

So I leave for home on monday, and then on Wednesday I fly out of the country and to Central Asia where I will be do missions work. I am so excited. I am there for two weeks. I get to visit an orphanage, isn't that the coolest thing ever. and I will get to take some amazing photos. I really wish I had a really nice SLR digital camera so I could do better photography. Anyways that is my life right now. More might come later...or in two years.

Carpe Diem -- Deborah --

Ok so I have not commented in like a month

So I am making a blog even though the hype about blogging has kind of died down..oh well. So I turn 18 in 10 days. thats cool you know what I can do when I turn 18...thats right I can vote..oh and buy dirty magazines..not that I am going to or anything. I am a little worried however on what my friends are getting me for my birthday...I mean when they are calling it "operation Sven" it worries me that they might be getting me a stripper...not that it is such a bad thing. Well I mean Robyn if she was there would have a huge problem with it because of that awesomeness about her..ok so no one should get that except like 3 people...and non of them live in Nova Scotia so oh well.

Anyways I am going to bethany in 2 days for a tour of the campus...Aj and Kelly and Aj and jen and callyn and matt and jeremey are all going as well. it should be awesome. we get to go to chapel and stuff and i get to see all my friends up there...and maybe just maybe find a nice boy...with a southern accent. well my hands hurt from typing...or I am just bored whateveer the case is it means that I am quiting writing for right now...nights
Love Me...and when I say me I mean Deborah

I think that I want to go to the moon

I want to go to the moon, because I like cheese, and because it would be fun to jump around and be all floaty. So the question is, how do I get to the moon? Well the answer seemed simple at first, I thought to myself all I have to do is join NASA and then they will take me to the moon, but the fact that they themselves have not been to the moon in a very very long time kind of ruined my plan.

So I figured that there is probably a better way to get to the moon. I mean if I was superman I could fly to the moon, or if I were dating superman then I could get him to fly me to the moon. Now the only problem with dating Superman is the fact that he has a girlfriend, dumb lois lane...so now the issue is getting rid of that pesky reporter who is interfering with my trip to the moon. So how do I make superman realize that Lois Lane is stupid and should not date her...Well I was thinking of using a magic potion, but I really do not know how to make a magic potion. So I guess the only other option is to use my awesome flirting skills that I learned at bootcamp and make him fall out of love with her.

Now I could get some evildoer involved, I am thinking Lex Luther, mainly because I really can not think of any other bad guys that Superman fights. So here is my thinking, if I can get Lex Luther to fall in love with Lois, he will do anything to get her. And if I talk to Lex first I can let him know that he does not have to try and hurt superman because I will make Superman not like Lois. So once I make Superman not like Lois Ihave to make sure that she knows it, and so I will do this by making sure that Lois sees me and Superman together, she will see the passion between us.

Now see I am a very good actress, because I really do not want to date Superman...I would much rather date someone that can teach me how to drive a standard, and I really don't think Superman can do that. But if I want to go to the moon, I must pretend to like Superman and date him...life is hard when you want to go to the moon. So now that I am dating Superman I will make him fly me to the moon.

I have now gone to the moon, it was a very good time, I should have brought some crackers with me however to eat with the cheese. That would have made the trip so much better. But I did get to enjoy some fun times jumping very high, which I guess if you are dating Superman he can help you jump very high, but this way I was doing it by myself. So now that I have been to the moon I guess I need a new goal. So I am dumping Superman and going to find a guy who can drive a standard and who is willing to teach me. So long, until the next tales of my random adventures trying to achive a pointless goal.

Love Deborah