Schools Back

so school has started and everyone is getting back into the swing of things. This time last year I felt like I didn't belong with the friends from freshmen year. I never seem to keep friends long. I think I do that so I don't get hurt. I mean if I change friends often then I can't get hurt right. Then I don't have to get close enough that when I am dropped I don't have to fall as far.
The friends I have now are amazing. I love them so much. Sometimes I feel like the joke of the group though. I hate being made fun of, and I hate even more when people say that when they make fun of me it means they love me. People have always said that to me growing up, and I have never gotten it. Those friends that have said that are no longer my friends, mainly because I have moved or they have moved. But I don't feel the need to keep in contact with them, what are they going to do make fun of me from long distance.
And then there is the whole me being quite thing. I mean what is the big issue with me being quite. Sometimes I just like to be, and people always make a big deal of it. You would think by now that my friends would get that when I am quite it is okay I am not dying. They just don't seem to catch on. And when I am quite it usually means I just want some affection and hugs. I feel the lack of hugs this year, and it kind of hurts.
Well now that I am done with my strange rambelings I am going to bed....the sick thing about that is it is not even 11pm yet. Oh well.